Lost.

Where am I? what am i doing? To be perfectly honest with you, i have no idea. Im currently at my new home in vancouver, as of a month of living here, i have yet to call it "home." Home should be a place of sanctuary, where you can feel safe and secure, where everything is familiar, but right now everything is still in the process, nothing really is finished. Our furniture isnt even in yet, and if you yell you can hear your own echo, the floor is competely naked, you HAVE to wear slippers. I can barely fall sound asleep in my OWN bed, can you believe that? Before in New Westminster, once my head hit the pillow, i would fall soundly asleep (Okay fine, i snore but engough to disturb anyone ..i hope) or is there something else i havent factor in?

But, i know for a fact that's not the only thing thats been bothering me. I have a question .. am i predictable? did i become the person i worst feared? have i become .. boring? Dear God. I thought my personality would take me far and set me aside from people. but i was dead wrong, i have become the predictable Jonathan Hipolito.

What the hell as been bothering me, i can barely look at myself in the mirror without thinking "where did you go wrong?" am i that much of a disappointment? I dont know about you but, when i look into my own eyes, i see the dull colourless eyes, with no life and joy. I want to be able to find myself, I need to .. I have to.

Time. Theres not enough of it, I need more of it, and i want it to pass much much slower, so when the time do comes i am able to savour every second of you in my arms, i need you, and thats that. You are my light house, you help me stay on the right path your shall forver be my light, you are like the foundation of a building for me, you keep me stable and in the right space of mind, You are the support beams and collumns, you keep me together in faith and in morals, im not strong emotionally because you like to play with it =P but its okay i love you for it, when something crumbles, its BOUND to create its own base and support itself haha. I really hope you feel the same for me, if not, you'll come around, im sure of it.

Ineedaspark.

A lesson learned

DARTS

A young lady named Sally, relates an experience she had in a Seminary Class, given by her teacher, Dr. Smith. She says Dr. Smith was known for his elaborate object lessons.

One particular day, Sally walked into the seminary and knew they were in for a fun day. On the wall was a big target and on a nearby table were many darts. Dr. Smith told the students to draw a picture of someone that they disliked or someone who had made them angry, and he would allow them to throw darts at the person's picture.

Sally's girlfriend drew a picture of a girl who had stolen her boyfriend. Another friend drew a picture of his little brother. Sally drew a picture of a former friend, putting a great deal of detail into her drawing, even drawing pimples on the face. Sally was pleased at the overall effect she had achieved.

The class lined up and began throwing darts, with much laughter and hilarity. Some of the students threw their darts with such force that their targets were ripping apart.

Sally looked forward to her turn, and was filled with disappointment when Dr. Smith, because of time limits, asked the students to return to their seats. As Sally sat thinking about how angry she was because she didn't have a chance to throw any darts at her target.

Dr. Smith began removing the target from the wall. Underneath the target was a picture of Jesus ...

A complete hush fell over the room as each student viewed the mangled picture of Jesus; holes and jagged marks covered His face and His eyes were pierced. Dr. Smith said only these words ... "In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me." Matthew 25:40 No other words were necessary; the tear-filled eyes of each student focused only on the picture of Christ.

"Treat people how you wanted to be treated," is a saying i always hear from people, but i believe it is not as awe grasping as, "treat people how you want Jesus to be treated," applying your faith to everyday life will make you a better person. Even though the temptations of gossiping and talking smack to/about your fellow friends are present at all times, we need to find a way to pass these temptations. For these temptations will lead ourselves away from God, we turn our backs on him, thinning our relationship with him. But, as we pass each temptation, we can strengthen the connection with him. WWJD? He would not criticize everyone that comes along his way, but it is in our nature to criticize, in the long run we can find a way to overcome these allurement.

I admit, i am judgmental and i still haven't found a way to conquer these temptations, but i never act upon my assumptions, i would still try to get to know the person. But sometimes our decisions get the best of us, bringing the worst in people, making people feel like shit on unreasonable grounds just so they can just get a kick out of it, some people acutally feed on this condition, the condition of the victim. Luckily such as myself i dont do that, because there are people out there, that brings out the best of me, and conceal the worst of me, and i want to thank them.
Thank you.
Jonathan Hipolito
Come home soon! i miss you already =/ but i really do hope your enjoying yourself. Talk to you soon =) Come back home safely! talk you in a few hours =)

"quickly inhale the heavy aroma ..."

In this Forecast, i see Rain, and lots of it. I know this is late but ... so long summer, oh how i long for your return. But anyways, its been very cold lately, i can no longer wear just a shirt and a thin jacket, or i'll freeze to death in the cold. But, i do got to admit .. oddly enough .. i do miss the piercing cold that numbs your face, because now i am able to wear my scarf and wrap it around my head, and now i am able to wear my winter jacket. Now times like this, set up the perfect environment to have a cup of coffee with a loved one or a friend in a coffee shop, just to sit there and talk about life, family, friends, S.Os, school, futureplans, and such. I can picture it already, you enter a coffee shop like Starbucks or any that you prefer, then right when you enter the shop, you instantly inhale the heavy aroma of the coffee brewing a few steps ahead of you, your mind quickly fills with the different kinds of coffee you can order (an espresso, marble mocha macchiato, americano, caffe mocha, cappuccino or a plain black coffee), once you made your order, you walk to the side where you can pick up your breverage, once you recieve your drink, you find a table to sit with your friend, quickly make your self comfortable, sit, and once your ready, take a sip from the delicious breverage. Currently craving coffee, any takers?
Janice, would you like to grab of coffee with me? i would really appreciate that =)

reflect

Start time: 1:05am
Can't sleep. hmm .. Whats on my mind, i can tell you that there are many things that are currently fluidly running through my mind, school, family, friends, relationships, and life it self. Haha, today in Religion class, Mr. Genzer told everyone to complete the questions related to the movie Bruce Almighty, i didn't take him seriously until Ms.Cervi was checking up on our "progress," i read one of the questions which was "What is Happiness?" hmm ... what is happiness? Happiness is the state of being happy, where you feel safe, secure, where endorphins are released within your body, pleased with everything that has been going on with yourself and surrounding you. But, what does make you happy? for myself, checking on the Blogspot Gizmodo momentarily makes me happy, seeing all these new techy gadgets (don't even) and making me want them, but what happens when the gadget isn't within reach? also listening to music always makes me happy, listening to the soft and mellow tones of the tracks always soothes me, but what happens when the battery dies? All of these examples that makes you happy, will only help for that brief moment of time, but what i know that will always make me happy is my friends and family, i can always count on them to be there for me. These people made me who i am today, every single of them of them contributes to the product of me, especially her, she brings out the entirely different me, the best of me, what i can be, she is the one that i look forward to talking to late at night, receiving my morning hug, playing the 24hrs puzzle with her, grabbing a cup of coffee during those cold winter days, only seeing her between classes because i have no classes with her whatso ever, walking to her busstop and seeing her get on, and right before we part, i savor each and every moment we hug, it may not seem like it, but i do, just look into my eyes and at that isntant, you'll know what i mean. This is my day, there are variations, but i shall not change anything, i am finaly whole.
End time: 1:43am (look at that, i can honestly say, i did not to that on purpose)
Jonathan Hipolito

Title: Weak
Artist: Passion

I don't know what it is
that you done to me
but its caused me to act
in such a crazy way
oh yeah babe

whatever it is that you do
when you do what you do to me
ohhh oh
its a feeling I want to stay

bridge
Cause my heart stops beating
triple times
with thoughts of loving you
on my mind
i cant figure out just what to do
when the calling cue is you

chorus
I get so weak in the knees
I can hardly speak
I lose all control (i lose control)
and something takes hold me (takes over me)
In a daze it is so amazing (amazing)
its not a phase
I want you to stay with me (to stay with me)
by my side
I swallow my pride (my pride)
your love is so sweet
it knocks me right off my feet yeahhh yea (echo sentence)
cant explain why your lovin'
makes me weak (echo)

time after time after time
i try to fight it
but your love is strong
it keeps on holding on
resistance is down
when your around my baby yeahh
heyy
in my condition i dont want to be alone ohh

bridge

ohhhh

chorus

I try hard to fight it
but i cannot deny it
your love so sweet
knocks me off my feet

instrumental

Sleep? not for me. 2:09am

Ive been hiatus for the past .. few months on blogspot. I never had the chance to post, i won't be able to sum everything that has been happening, but, these pictures below will aid me.
Before I put any pictures up, Grade 11 2007-2008, thank you for the many life lessons you might have taught me, so long ... and welcome 2008-2009.


This day, Amanda and I went for coffee just to catch up on things, then after I took her to La Bodega, a restaurant near Davie Street that features tapas (spanish Cuisine).


The day of the wedding, it was my cousins wedding, getting ready and i wanted to see if i look picture ready =)


Picture of the family


This is what happens if you bring your handheld device to a wedding.


This is a picture of the family ... well part of the family a lot of them were not able to come to the wedding, unfortunately.


Ah, the bride, my cousin Tonet (Antoniette)


hahah my cousin Jayr, pose for the camera! this guy is an amazing chef.


haha! its impossible to get my grandma to smile for a picture! and we manage to do so! haha I love you mama.


Canada Day 2008! This was taken at Pan Pacific, we only stayed at waterfront for only 30 minutes =/ ... does anyone know that mascot?


ah, one of my favourite pictures! This was taken as Gastown(i know i know, its given) of Janice and I =) i was about to put in colour ... but it made me look really really ridiculously dark.


This was just yesterday, when Chuck took out his friends car. This here is a BMW M3, isnt it a beauty?





This here is my aunts Mercedes S430 AMG, god .. i want to drive that car.

But overall, my summer has been great. I would like to thank Melissa Hatud for all the painstaking hours she put in, to plan many of the gatherings/events this summer. Without Melissa, everyone would be likely be lazy to plan it themselves, "you plan it." and especially to you, for being very patient with me, i applaud you.

Exhausted

We are about to endure 21 hours worth of Choir Rehearsals everyone. It may not seem like it at first, but trust me it will accumulate at the end of the week. But anyways, i am no longer going to my family gathering in Seattle, because i have a Kiwanis Festival on Saturday, ill probably go to the play.. damn it ill just finish this later.
reminder:
-create posters
-create outline presentation
-memorize SCC & Mens ensembles
-interview on Wednesday
-sleep